mixed emotions

wasn't keeping very well since past few days, something or the other kept popping up, which kept me busy, didn't scribble anything for the same reason..well have many things to write, but will do that in a nutshell:

1st would be my first photojournalism assignment, it was great, loved it, came to know about so many photojournalists around the globe, and even discovered new things about my own self :). we got another assignment , of story writing and photography, excited for that one too, our teacher did like the topics and themes chosen on which my partner and i would liek to work, lets see how it shapes up, fingers crossed x..x

2nd would be, the advent of Ganpati bappa,, its gansehs chaturthi time in Mumbai, this city is anyways always on a run, but during festivals it becomes even more lively, specially ganpati time. all over the place, on the roads, every where,all sizes of ganpati idols can be sighted , from the size of a mineral water bottle , till the massive 'LAL BAAGH CHA RAJA' my maths isin't that proper i cant calculate its size... but its HUGE:D

3rdly,,, the movie i saw today, BOL, must say it was a piece of sheer ART, lovely message conveyed, perfect direction, mind boggling story line, expert acting and the list goes on and on, and how can i forget the besssttt part.. ATIFFFF :*:*:*:* justt loveee him hehehe, had a bigg crush on him since the time he came from the band AADAT.

4th. m going to loose those few extra pounds :D hehehe, have decided to go gymng from tomorrow, along with 5-6 more friends, hope so, lets see, who all have the courage to continue :D...

5th.. i think, my life is really going to change, when it comes to my relationship, i guess, i was right, 'LOVE DOESN'T EXIST'... soon i might be proved right, still, i hope all the happiness and best wishes for that special person, who may not be with me after some days, i guess, some stories are meant to end incomplete only :)...

proud to be your kid..

strange... but true, when someone's crest fallen, upset, dejected, disappointed with life, you try your level best to cheer them up, at least make them feel better, they feel good, they start moving on :), but why is it so that, you yourself start getting in their removed shoes?

i have a faint memory of a few such people, who learnt to move on , may be with my advice may be not, any ways, no one will ever give you credits , no matter how important a role , you have played in their lives.

The thing to ponder is -'' why do we start demoting"?? , obviously when you have those magical powers to set some one moving, then you yourself are strong enough, way more than those people, then why do you have to be reminded of this fact every time?

The best way is- to just walk ,without turning back, for that one needs 2 have a strong heart, actually, you can't just leave your basic nature, if you are selfish. you'll always be selfish, the intensity may change , and if you are selfless, happens the same..

here are a few things, which i have grown up with, a few teachings by my parents my creators , my mum dad >:D< m the proudest kid to have them, and i hope ill always follow these things now and forever love u muma papa :)

walk, but do turn back to the one's who need you...

be selfish, only when required....

smile, always :)

say a prayer, whenever you blink your eyes

give a hug, sometimes, without a reason

its very easy to think just about yourself, think about someone else ,gives you a lot of solace :)

be ambitious, but do remain healthy

envy someone, but also learn to appreciate his talents

never forget a favor

understand someone's silence, before his actions speak

remember your bad times, they always show you the reality...

love god, love your parents,with no measures for, they are the only one's who love you without anything in return...

this will be my last wish before i die, and the first with whenever i'll be born, to have you both only as my muma n papa.. :) where ever i go, be it on mars be it on pluto, even if i am born an alien, i want you there.... always be there with me :*

rain, rain ur here to stay!!!

woosh.. what a day!!... the downpours were tremendous,but this picture, above, it really gave me a good feeling :).. 4 friends under 1 umbrella, rendering everyone wet, i was a little late in clicking , but never mind :) the funniest part was, that there wasn't even a tickle of water in the house, and outside in the open, the sky was melting down with madness, all of us, were out on the roads, unkempt , dirty , just of the bed, a common sight in a holiday, hogged , and laughed, just when, some people in the group, who have sworn to spoil the show by making a face in the end, when the evening is just about to get tagged" perfect"... but, we have at least learnt to ignore such spoil sports, not completely but yes partially

two of my very close buddies( preeto , rohit) and i( in my night suit only :P hehehehe ) went offf.. to one of our favorite places(CP... not the delhi 1, the mumbai, infact kharghar 1, where we stay)... it was raining without a halt, woww that was the loveliest part of all...

so ... we walked in the slush, dirt and water, sometimes landing in the puddles, making faces , laughing at each other, having pity at some stray dogs, for getting drenched ..sadly they didnt have colorful umbrellas like we did... blue, green and pink.. the funny part.. rohit had the pink one hahahahaahhaa.. he'll kill me for this.

all of us were broke, so we had to go to the nearby ATM, but to our wonder, none of them agreed to spit out some cash... mean while.. preeto went for some mysterious shopping no one knows where she went and what she shopped , she returned with a big grin:D,... a grin that every girl can understand.. hehehe so did i... but we decided to have cup of coffee/tea at the nearby tea stall.. . a cup of coffee and the rains.. perfect combo.. we ordered 2 cups of tea and 1 cup of coffee respectively.

meanwhile, the shopkeeper was preparing our order, we comforted ourselves on a little elevated portion , taking shelter under the corridor of the CP market. all three of us, watched the rain drizzle down, and kept chit chatting, while we sipped our share of tea/coffee. just then, preeto and i , found something that could be a perfect time pass for both of us, where as , it would be a 'BIG TIME" torture for rohit.. tch tch tch .. poor thing. :p we noticed a shop , just adjacent to the tea stall, the rest of the time, almost 30 minutes went in choosing, cribbing, cursing, giving up, suggesting, AND BARGAINING :D... though the last thing on the list never happened, and yes.. as always we didnt fail to give our favorite dialogue to the shopkeeper " dobara nahi ayege apki shop pe huh"(we'll never come back to your shop).... while we were discussing all the way back, when do we return to that shop next :D.....

then next on the list was, preeto's new phone, again the balderdash was on!!! FULL ON!!.... phew!! after browsing through approx, 1000 - 2000(highly exaggerated :D) handsets, we decided upon one, which is yet to be purchased..

the day had slowly dropped down with the continuous showers, it was night by now, we had to return to our nests... but we were satisfied, we spent a quality time together :)...

its true, very few and very rare people only can make 'THAT' place in your life, you may be special to many, u may be good to many, infact to all, but only 'THOSE' few people will understand you and get"THAT' place in yous life :)

speaks it all...

there's surely something about this picture... got it on the net today... no offense intended.. as i myself m a girl, but are they actually trying to call a female a 'bitch'???i am sure all the men would surely be agreeing with it...cant be said , as its still a mystery, if its a male or a female dog in the picture...

or is it the other way round??... its trying to portray the , savage and brutal way, by which women are treated in certain countries equal to a bitch... straying on the roads... just called for when required , else again left on her own, tied up and restricted, abused and killed, beaten and chained..

she and me..

phew!!... the D- day is over.. finally, we had this jury , which was kind of, important :P.. thankfully all went well., everybody came out smiling, or with mixed expressions, that's actually "more then enough" when it comes to our juries..." all's well that ends well"....past few days have been quite stress full , as well as thoughtful , had an emotional outburst after a long long time, thanks to my mom and a "few good men"( ahahahha puns intended) , gathered myself back.

when i turn behind n look at that girl standing far away , at a distance of 4 years from me, she looks so much like me, i wonder how?.. she even wears glasses, like i do..but its not me, who is she?then i see her, slowly fade away and become evanescent...

sometimes i happen to see this girl again, she doesn't utter a word, nor do i question her, and she again vanishes away, in these few days, she was with me, all the while. i was asked by a few people, why i look so lost, upset, am i bothered??..to which i gave a genuine"i am fine :)'' thankfully i could overcome that girl at that moment, they also got confused, they thought they saw me, but it was just an illusion, she had been replacing me all these days.

it was 'me'.. she was "me'.. 4 years back, when things were different, solutions , came through discussing them out, 'just speak out' and your problems will be solved, was actually a magic, which did happen , being after people, literally irritating them to death , just for one hint. that could lead to what's bothering them , in order to find solutions to it, honestly discussing a genuine idea, just with the hope of more suggestions..

the gradations and graduations in time, people, thoughts, situations, atmosphere, priorities...murdered that girl, my mom says, "never break a loving heart, once it breaks, it can never be mended... and i feel , once it breaks,all the love it is filled with, spills out, rendering it empty";

wont comment about the others,but i know even their own sweet replicas are also with them sometimes but yes for sure, they let them take over quite less, but yeah, my replica , she stays with me, even now, and i know it, yeah she remains hidden, but she knows it now when she should be visible , and ill always protect her no matter what, times will change.. as change is the ultimate truth, they say, be selfish, think about yourself , let the world go to hell, don't expect, but... why such things happen??? stop..and think for a while, even you have been that way with someone, you too have shattered someone's expectation, you too have been selfish, " Reap what you sow"

what i believed, 4 years from now, i still do, but its modified a bit now, as far as talking your problems out is concerned, genuinely don't feel like doing that now, when you are seen in a bad phase, people just feel happy within( experience).

its not that bad, being 'me' , don't know why, may be it was supposed to happen this way only, theirs this,, queer silence , a weird peace, a peculiar pause, this reverie i stay in , these days, is kind of giving me a genuine solace, being lonely was something i always feared, but now i kind of love it, but yeah i am not a loner also, i like people around, but i know even in that crowd, i am alone, actually, every one is, aah... past insomniac week has really rendered me baffled , i am sure, my narration of the whole " she and me" thing , would sound bizarre, but i have this thing, may appear negative , but that's how i am, you need to read between the lines, its never elaborate, when it comes to me....(at least now it is so).

aweful or annaful???

The beginning of the day was quite cut-and dried.. though Friday is supposed to be a nice relaxed day as its the weekend, (sigh)...but our class time-table goes absolutely opposite, a line of theory subjects all bundled up for the last day in the working week..but to our happiness.. we just had to tolerate one of them, the rest of the day went decaying time.

someone was surfing through the tv channels in the canteen, and the news channel was put up,which showed Anna Hazare's revolutionized India. The change in the channel lead to the change in the atmosphere of the canteen as well, on a smaller scale only though, the cards of my deck started getting shuffled up, comments and statements poured in from corners and cracks, criticism and appreciation were both felt.

The best part of the day was, when the members of my gang ,actually split apart in two parts, FOR or AGAINST anna.. , ANNA has become the biggest talk of town these days, and he actually deserves to be, yeah there are a handful of people who are against this whole notion and are actually cribbing about the whole scenario. Came across numerous views, some way different some holding some nuance ,ill be addressing the group of people against the notion as the opposition, with no offenses intended, just because i myself support the notion , therefore i fall in the defendant party, the members of the opposition group stated that:

• " ANNA'S GREED FOR PUBLICITY LEADS HIM TO TAKE SUCH A STEP"
• "WHY IS HE DOING ALL THIS NOW?? WHY DIDNT HE DO IT WHEN HE WAS YOUNG"
• "HE SURELY IS GETTING SOME POLITICAL BACK-UP, ELSE HE WAS LONG GONE BY NOW"
• ''ONLY THE PEOPLE WITH A POWERFUL BACKING, IN MONETARY TERMS SPECIALLY, CAN TAKE A STAND, SPECIALLY WHEN IT COMES TO CORRUPTION"
• "PEOPLE ARE JUST GETTING INFLUENCED BY SO MUCH PROPAGANDA, THEY ACTUALLY DON'T KNOW MUCH ABOUT HIM"
• "HE SURELY MUST BE HOGGING BEHIND THE CURTAINS"

these statements and questions actually hit my grey cells, and got my mind working, are people so naive and babyish that they would just start walking blind and deaf, without a clue or hint about the reason for which they are actually following someone?? soo not true

about the whole old age thingy, its easy but, foolish to talk about something we are not at all aware of, even i didnt have much knowledge about anna since of last, but its actually not sensible to pass statements which can really put you in a tight spot, is ti so simple to make a change?? or being about a wave of awareness??NO!! its not, and it surely does require a lot of time and patience to achieve "that" goal, therefore, anna is here today , an old man but with futuristic approach, an old man who could move the youth.

Was watching a small documentary sort of a thing shown on the news channel, about anna's, life.."ANNA KI KAHANI ANNA KI ZUBANI".... it was so over whelming to know such facts about this man, who started to curb corruption from a very basic and small level, from the small village , where he resided , he brainwashed the people to quit smoking and drinking, and almost 21 years back in this small village , a holika was burnt up with cigarettes and alcohol, and since that day, not a single shop there sells the above mentioned articles.When it comes to , faking about the whole 'anshan' , as it is being though that, he surely must be filling up his tummy tight, whose actually going and checking , i agree, but even if he is eating, what's the harm??? he surely does require those calories after so much hard work :D

Its a fact, that , even after the lokpal bill is passed, the corruption and its roots wont be churned, but yes, its a GOOD START, at least someone hd to take that initiative , and its 'him', m sure he doesn't want a role in one of those ekta kapoor serials nor does he want to appear "sexy and glam" to grab a place in the lakme fashion week, its just about the power of UNITY, and the power of a 'COMMON MAN'.

today was yet another unique day...though it may seem mundane by the kind of activities and the routine we follow, but therz always this"unique" factor about every passing day infact every passing moment, we visited the LAKME FAHSION WEEK 2day . venue: grand hyatt ,mumbai.. this ws our 2nd tym that v went for this fascinating show, as the name only suggests, FASHION... its a summation of: glamour,panache,glitter,extravagance and many more golden words.. it is also actually.. but then a;; that glitters is not gold.for.me, being an aspiring designer, obviously it meant a lot..der ms hav bin approx 2 to 300 students??..who wud hv dreamt dat very same dream at that flickering moment..jus like the flashes from da numerous cameras...such thots flash thru our skulls and store a thot in the form of imaginations and dreams..but out of those 300 people..coveting for that same.place..how many actually reach there???mayb 5? is it jus the hard work and passion that lacks in the rest 295 of them??or is it that extra"goodluck charm" factor wid the rest 5 of them??

we even got to have an interface with the godfathers of da fashion world.. like krishna mehta, brianboy, ashish patil .. etc.. but the best part of the little conference v had with those people was.." the more things change , the more they remain same"....

P.S.- "follow ur heart and make ur own trends,instead of following smthng dt sone1 has already done"...

thumbs up!!

why m i doing dis??? i know its not right.... then why?????... 4 no rhyme n reason???.. its impossible to do things widout a reason.. i really need to check myself on dis.. dis is so not me... no

NEVA.... i wasnt dis way... hw can i b 'dis' now??...

time to change.. :)... n it begins...NOW!!

2day ... it ws nthng special but ya.. ws quite historical.. as i go to discuss a lot with one of my friends.. about mahabharata , ramayana, lord krishna da biggest politician, chanakya.. ohh so nice.. our history has jus been soo glorious.. wish to know more and more and more.. da fact n new pieces of knowledge r soo fascinating... :)..

anothr new thing i came 2 knw 2day ws.. dt in a remixed song.. d wordings also change.. well i ws in dis impression always dt..it ws jus playng wid music.. :P.... evry piece of knowledge is unique in its own way....

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thot 4 da day...

Facts speak louder than eloquence

writer ..agn unkown

my 1st day in college!!!

entered the building, weirdly made

in beige , brown n some other shade

with a pair of cliche' floaters

i stepped into the premises ,through the sliding gate

the heavens were showering down there blessings, well , thats how , that day it seemed

when the first maharashtrian raindrop onto my head was laid.

then came my "HOME AWAY FROM HOME",

the green hospital personified as Hostel

where you were taught to be disciplined ,if not,

then forcibly made.clasping the cold iron

i dragged myself to room number 208.

now i cant b writing down each and every detail

I have to manipulate

everything seemed too organised, atleast for the likes of me,

untill came in my messy.. room mate :p.

tall physique ,twinkling eyes, tweety smile, wearing a weird nightsuit,

she sat on my contrary side.

we kept giving blank looks to each other,

nothing at all on either side was said.

days passed, and the number of people ,wearing the "friends"

veils kept adding to my cupboard.

as we all in the beginning thot..

for each other v were made.

its my last year in this weird building now

had different experiences and by now, many daredevilish

games iv played

life taught a lot.. behind these beige walls

hopefully its teachings can fetch me more guts and balls..

thot for da day... found dis thot by sm sm1 anonymous .,....

Then I said to myself, "What happens to the fool will happen to me also; why then have I been so very wise?" And I said to myself that this also is vanity. For there is no enduring remembrance of the wise or of fools, seeing that in the days to come all will have been long forgotten. How can the wise die just like fools?

des few lines have agn geared up my grey matters...so true...

if d wise n da fool will b 4gotten in da same fashion... then why do v have so mny differences and inequality ???

bangalore trip... da commencement

the 3rd yr ws coming to an end, what did i jus say :O.."THE THIRD YR" gosh vl over wid college soon, pretty soon, as per our curriculum v hv to have this" summer internship' thingy, dis vacation, which obviously meant our holidays , so called holidays wer about to screw up "big time".

people started rushing thru der contacts. fonecalls, mails, etc etc followed. everyone wanted a good internship for heavens sake..

after all mad race.. we all (my bunch of ppl... aka my group) also managed to get themselves fixed up for internship..phew!!!

one of my good frnds.(rishika) askd me if i ws interested in interning at d ABC corp..(dn wna mention da firm wt if i get sued :O... kidding.. abd corp sounds beter)....wid her?? to which i happily agreed.

BANGALURU: our destination, which wud presumably be our home for the coming 8 weeks.. 56 DAYS!!!

"TRAGEDY FOLLOWS THE QUEENS" cound b so apt and proper for us (but thn yeah m sued ot it n i always prefer following the worst case scenario :p)..

our end semester exams ended on the 21st of may 2011... dat day plus da coming one wnet in packing n rushing for all the hitngs that wud b necessarily required ( as if v wer goin to sm desert:|)...

i( :O oh... 4got to introduce masself... m radhika :p.....) stuffed my 2 big bags, obviously more than der capacity, but yeah still i kept in my mind that i cudnt exceed 20kgs.. as the airlines requirement,,,( though deep down inside my heart i knew , i had crossed dat limit longgggg back :P hehehehe....) but to console maself i pulled out a t-shirt or 2...which wud obviously b like taking a drop out of da sea :p but i did so to keep off da guilt u c :D..

the morning ws a hurried 1, wid the taxi (sardarji)YELLING on top of his lungs and giving dirty ,disappointing looks as we wer alrdy QUITE LATE :D..., no one to b blamed, happens.. smtyms .. all the share of gudbyes , keep in touches , take cares were done and so we drove offf to the airport..

things wer pretty smooth so far,.. well well well.. da show has jus begun :D..

on the santacruz airport. i curiously looked for d sms in my fone, holding our PNR numbers...GOTCHA!!... i proudly moved ahead toward the counter for a quick printout, which wudnt have taken more than 5minz . BUT, to my surprise, after reading the ticket printouts.. the names on the parchment read da same surnames for both rishika and myself ..which ws da agents fault mostly...( aah shudnt b much of a prob. i spoke inside my head).. but on a safer side.. i preferred aksing dt lady behind da glass, if der wer any issues wid dis??? n to her amazement , i ws stupid enuf ti ask her if it ws a prob or not as it"SURELY WAS":O.. i returned to the waiting zone....where rishika n her frnd nitin wer waiting already, giving me anxious yet disgusting looks for looking worried yet not disclosing da" GOOD NEWS"..

alas... finally i broke da ice...we all exchanged straight faces..( :| =me :|= rishika :|= nitin) in a few seconds v cud very well see.. wt da forthcominf future could b....

with a lot of hustle bustle, madness.. fonecalls n out of da world ideas...v went to receive our boarding pass.. instead of doing anything doltish or over smart .., we told da ground staff, wht the actual thing was and to our surprise, they were pretty ok wid it and ahh,,,,, like fools v wer tensing d hell out of our grey matters :|... and yaa.. da baggage :p... ma lil dirty secret ws out... it ws obviously overweight ...had to b..n i had to bare da consequences , had to carry 1 whole big fat bag wid me as hand baggage :(((:((:((.. was ok... better than not boarding da flight at all phew!!!....

by da grace of god.. v boarded da flight.. n offf v went to da beautiful city of BENGALURUU....

to b continued in bangalore....

wt d....

i wonder.. if it happens wid evry1 or jus wid me??

der r a few ppl in evry1z life 4 sure.. who get oto der nerves evry now n then but thn still v crave for those ppl v feel sad 4 them cnt c them in pain.. yet hate them at da same tym... bizzare ...

y so??

is it jealousy?

is it hatered?

is it competition?

is it love? is it madness?

is it hope? is it comparison?

is it some past life connection?

is it whatt???

evry night i ask da same question 2d twin me.. but i fail to get a reply..

why?? why cnt v jus b bothered about wt v have? y always sneaking peaking in d other prsnz bag?

der r soo mny things soo gud about each n evry1 of us.. yet v fail to admit or accept it... agn i don say b self obsessed.. but ya y is dat fear always der... dt fear to accept wt da reality is??..

omg m jus writing ne nonsense .... aah...i better get lost ...a lot more contemplation required..

banana woman..!! yo

nw dis ws d only thing remaining :D....

2day.. i ws mistaken to b a banana vendor..gosh.....=))=))... i really love maself smtyms... 4 da madness i fall into evry now n then :d adds spice 2 life...

life wud rilly b damn monotonous ...atlst i need those mad incidents in ma life :P...

n its actually true.. dno who started sayng it but ya now evry1 says it..."go wid d flow n things wil fall in place on der own".. so true...

things seem demolished completely smtyms.. but thn der r a few last bricks remaining in d ruins..which r actually more thn enuf to build up ur bridge agn....

i feel gr8.. to b a supa fruit woman 2day :P.... pleasuredDDDd...

:| straight face

life's funny...

smtyms it puts u on cloud 9.. n d next moment ur crestflen

u see a hope.. dim as an amber.. which seems glowing brighter n brighter but all of a sudden it extinguishes.. its really not possible 2 predict wt life wants..

ma lifez turned in 2 a big crossroad all of a sudden.. well it always was but... its bcoming too muchnow .

i mean ..y d hell do v have 2 take certain important actually da most important decisions at such difficult moments whn ur head refuses to work.. gosh...m sure it happens wid every1...

so far ma life is aimless.. lazy n jus live-each-day -as-it-comes types... dono if derl b ne healthy progress in da near future or not .. though it actually needs dt..

2day .. v went for our last 15th august celebration at college.. ws a nostalgic moment.. :) but ws really disappointed by da cultural function ..goddd:O.. ppl wer dancing on songs of sm tapori folk genre..:s dno wt ws wrong wid them.. d standards r deteriorating ....(cold sigh)

dnno.. bt its nt clicking.. m jus writing ne humbug.. i need to contemplate more.. leme do dt 1st.. :d

jaii hooo!!!!

paint me saffron

paint me white

paint me green

its my independent night..... a veryy happy independence dayy tooo alll.. :)

my india.. my 1st love

my mother my pride

its bin 64 yrs now .. u r independent of d foreigners but yeah ur still a slave to ur own offsprings.. hope dis independence day brings a new wave of thot and realization :).. vandee mataramm!!!

right or wrong??

people say.. u think a lot

is it bad 2 think?? 2 question urself and look 4 answers within?? well i dont think so :P...

i dono y but some same silly mundane questions keep rebounding in my head.. which are actually so silly like really "silly".. which shudnt even b thot about, which jus giv u headaches nuthng els.. but i guess ma head likes 2 ache 4 sm reasons..its good to look around.. observe people, know them, hv views about them, evn misjudge them (most of d tym), but der r a few things which r common in most of d population :

da "I M RIGHT " thingy..which wont b eva clearly said but ya in evey action every statement of theirs wil b felt, jus want to prove da same thing... n if they fail to do so...aah da best way.."i giv a damn"...

i mean...its impossible to b right all da tymmm..its jus god who cant make mistakes.. rest evry bloody thing makes mistakes, y so much ego? .they jus make a point to act da same way n remain da same no matter wt.. no matter how gud u r to them or how gud u hv bin to them.. wt matters 2 them is jus der own ego n attention seeking attitude....

n der i am.. criticising da world as if m d best example of perfection :D... but yeah evry1 knows how good or bad they are.. n so do i B-)....

i dno.. hmm evry1 needs attention.they really do , evn i do. but then getn self obsessed ..puts me off.. :(.. mayb m wrong but then evry1 has rights 2 out fwd der own notions.. m doin d same :)

its actually not easy 2 b a good child of god.. :) v really need to work hard.. very hard..

even u hv a reason to cry??

da rains bring out all our hidden emotions..evn d 1z whoz exposure u fear , happy or sad u may b but it duz ur eye drop a tear...

i wonder.... r u cryng god?? if yes.. then y??

v r homo sapiens .. who need a reason to weep at evrythng v have or d things which v neva got though v wanted them so deep

whn v laf too much , v cry

whn v eat mirchi(spicy), v cry

whn v r sad (ofcorz), v cry

whn v watch an artificial daily soap, v cry

whn v r bruised, v cry

whn some1 becomz a star, v cry

whn some1 comes 4m a star, v cry

whn a woman becomz a mother , she cries

whn she cant, she still cries

whn v get to study, v cry

whn v dont, v still cry

whn v r needy, v cry

whn v r rich , v still cry

its beyond my imagination... wid ma weak maths its even more difficult to count the number of tears shed on this earth so far .. mayb right now also.. some1 is increasing the calculations for this hour....

r des myriad drops.. mere copious tears dropping from god almightys eyes???..seeing what his beautiful earth his priced possession his passionate creation has turned into??

jus a bucket full of dissatisfied tears.....

rakshabandhann :)..

hmm rakhi.. a fest dt represents a vry innocent, pure n naughty bond :P hehehehehe... 4 da 1st tym.. in ma life i din cry on dis fest well its useless pennign down da reason y i cried otherwse evry yr.. :) coz dt wud actually b gaining sympathy n "attention" most of all.. i know wt makes me sad evry yr on dis day but still i gues sive learnt to live wid it now n iv accepted wt i have n wt ill loose very soon.. it will b tough but our pains r very very small whn it comes to some1z heart rendering sufferings... wel i knw whoeva is reading dis( if at all nebdy is)... wudnt b hvnt ne hint bout wt m blabbering.... hehehe so lets make dis day a happy 1..

well... in des past few days.. ma life has tried to take a few drastic turns... mark those words.. "tired" :P hehehe its still on a trial basis n trust me its horrible whn dt happens... ur hanging in d middle of 2 very crucial stages of ur life... and i know dat mayb in a few days ma life changes 'BIG CHANGE" n like a typical girly i shud b sittin cryng n worryng bout it which is so liek me otehrwise.. coz i do get worried n think bout things a lot.. but its nt hapng so.. mayb m jus ignoring it or smthng..:P or mayb its 1z basic nature dt u cnt loose .. if u r a nut u will b a nut :P hehehhe u cnt gi vup ur madness ... 2day as it ws rakhi v celebrated it wid loadsa mastiiiii!!!... i tie rakhi to 1 of ma frnds.. ate tons of chocz na gained heaps of cals :D... then came another twishtttt.... a frnd of a frnd (wow wt a terminology) came over 2 our town... poor thing had neva met her b4.. aha... v got plan... d mischievous minds at work... now i became ma frnd(preeti) n ma frnd became me.. n whn he came da shwo begannnnn!!!!!......

frnd- hi!!! whoz preeti

me: hey its me :D

preeti: =)))))

da frnd ws a chatterboxxxxxxx omg... he went on n on n on n on :O:O:O:O.....

i remaind preeti 4 a long tym... thn da thing ws gting a lil boring u c.. so v came out of our roles.. :D chalo kuch to timepas hua... no offenses intended :p..

our day started wid movieeee.. aarakshan.. well i dn hv da energy 2 act lik a film critique nw...thn came pooja thn rakhi tyng tamasha.. actually tamahsa.. as 1 of ma dearest frnd cm broo brot his high tech SLR CAM wid an even high tech lense wid an even high tech zzooming power.. which actually made us stand in da drawing room while he cliked our pics from da bedroom... :|:|:|... mithai + choc session.. thn came d lunch.. then came another session of argument ...wereva 4 crazy gals wid entirely different point of views n 2 guys wid a deadly common sense try 2 plan things.. da consequences r GRAVE... da issue ws.. wt to do next??.. suggestions flowed in from all da corners 4m going 2.. colaba, bandra, pune.. lonavla..vashi n cp..( da local market).. guess wt?? wer we went in da end.. aftr a big cat dog fight in d middle of da street itself..............................................

cp..:) koi fayeda nahi discussion ka.... ohh yeah nw da frnds episode wil happenn k...kindly connect d loops :P... after a neva ending discussion of 5minz :D wid da eva talkign frnd.. v decided to save our lives by making a plan 2 go to CCD... at belapur near by...

we all shared a hearty laf n loadsa gossip n bitching as well ofcorzzz 4 gals n no bithcing :D impossible.... n da day ended wid a dinner at 1 of d most nostalgic food joints...n vry1 widout ne further arguements peacefully ordered der same old fav dishes which v always used 2 eat whneva v useed 2 go to dt restaurant :).. wow... ws fun.. n d cherry on da cake ws.. da walk in da heavy rainsss full on filmy situation .. umbrellaz flyngggg wind blwoingg mad downpours... n on d streets us 6.. singing... hmmmmmmm ik ladki bheegi bhagi si..sotii raato mey jaagi si...mili ik ajnabi sey koi aagey na peechey tum hi kaho ye koi baat haiiiiiii..hmmmmmm :P.....

lifes actually too short.. :) to b wasted in criticising wt v dn hv... v really shud cherish wteva shit vev got :P..all puns intended ahahhahahaaaa... omg i got acall from da next roommm theyv cooked sm earthworm kinda creatures... eeeeeeeeeeeew.... maggi maggi maggi :*

sick n sweet..

aacccchhuuu!!!... bless me... d 2nd day in mumbai n d same old cold cough..jus cough n all actually:D back after a tyrng train journey. wer jus 2 of us got confirmd tickets n d 3rd 1 ws stil on waiting :p.. v actually boarded d train wdiout ne clue of our seta number not evn coach number,.. gosh .. seemed as if vl b left dis tym 4 sure...had no acess to net from past mny days.. well feels vry comfi 2dy as d issues wi dma internet bill hv bin settled... d day ws fun.. its vry well said" wer ders a will ders a way " :d hehehe smthgn liek dt actually happened wid us 2dy ... had a nice ragging session wid ew new juniors.. wer cute... sm mad.. sm wid d same old unwanted attitude ( ignore)..:D... hmmm..watchd a whole lot of animated clips..of old panchtantra stories... wid deplorable animation aaahhahhaha... funny yet nice... n drippy.. :)...