The sand slowly slipped from the hourglass ....and my AMMA...left for her heavenly abode on 7th october 2012,.. cant explain or express the hapless feeling i am going through, the last time i met her was in the month of January .. she bid me a hearty goodbye and a good luck too as i was about to go for my final year exams in college.. little did i know that it was the last time i was seeing her... wished i could tick the clock backwards or i had the dexterousness of some big scientist to build up my own time machine and go back in time, i know it was impossible to stop her from leaving for her eternal journey but all i wanted was to bid her a proper and loving goodbye.
i never imagined i would see her that way all wrapped up in a white sheet. pale and ice cold, with no sign of life.. seemed like she was just having a nap.. the only thing missing was the way in which she used to exhale her breath while sleeping that made a funny sound, the way she snored.... all that was missing was "one breath of life"...
With my grandma's departure, i suddenly understood this thing called" the ultimate truth of life"... which is death.. we love each other, we fight for each other , we kill each other we do so many things. but in the end.. what remains is.. just melancholy , emptiness and old memories in our subconscious and conscious mind.
Jainism states.. that our jeeva or the soul takes birth in "3 pals" or within 3 moments after the soul leaves the body..its all so well calculated and planned. which means she too must have had a rebirth by now.. in fact way before.. all i wish for now is, immense peace, satisfaction ,solace and happiness for her, wherever she has started her new life cycle, may the lord be with her and provide her all the necessary requirements and may she fulfill her karmas gratefully ..
JAI JINENDRA.
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