Monday, June 24, 2013

ek kahani....

It was raining copiously , one of the heaviest in the season. She pushed the laminated plastic coated button of her black umbrella with purple flowers and slowly opened the fenced gate of her 1 Bhk apartment ,in a 4 storied building called "Saraswati CHS" , near the local station in Kalyan , trying her best not to make any noise that would wake up her mother.

Parvati was out again, in that stormy night for her part time job, about which her mother was not at all aware. It was past midnight now, the whole city seemed like the city of Venice , floating on water.
She waited for almost half an hour at the bus stop, almost wet in her orange colored Kurti with a batik print and a matching bottom to go with it, water was dripping down her shelled Earrings that dangled down on of her ears, only one of them,. Parvati, a dusky complexioned girl, with deep black eyes and sharp features, which gave her an attractive appeal even though she wasn't beautiful as per her mom, who felt that only fairness meant beauty. Her thick neatly plaited hair swished down her back with a fancy hair band with little tingling bells, that chimed whenever she moved, somewhat like a cow.

"Sorry for the delay, all the roads were water logged, we had to take a very long cut to reach the bus stop" a man sitting in the front seat , said to Parvati, he could be hardly seen as it was raining cats and dogs, and the water was dripping down the window of the silver santro car they were in. Parvati,   hurried up and gathered all the small poly bags she was holding and , sat in the back seat of the car.

"Where the hell have you been Manjeet, do have any idea what time it is?" yelped  Fatima Baaji at the man who had just gotten out of the front seat of the santro car. "And do you need some special invitation miss universe? Hurry up and get ready, you must know that we can do our job only at night, we are already short of time".

A scared Parvati, hurried out of the car, and ran up the wooden staircase, she almost faltered but managed to maintain her balance on that slippery floor."Carol, open the door, its me ,hurry up, open the door ", shouted Parvati. They both changed into fresh new clothes , hair tied up neatly with sweet smelling jasmine gajaras intertwined with the plaited hair . They were asked to quickly move to the main hallway and then to the corner room where they were supposed to be proceeding with their respected work.

Almost 2 hours had passed now, the dawn was about to break, the whole place was smelling of the world's best dishes, "Hurry up girls, the people have arrived, we must begin now".

With the first azaan in the morning, all the workers of the "rehmat" Orphanage , thanked the lord for giving them the duty to serve his other children, the most beautiful sight here was that there were people from all the sects working for this organization, including hindus, catholics and sikhs, under one roof, with their Muslim siblings.

These people used to gather together in the late hours of night and used to prepare food for the depriveed and less fortunate people, who used to come from by far near the holy Dargah early morning after the very first prayers in the mosque, they used to get some helpings and offerings from the nearby rich families and social firms as well, which parvati, a hindu girl used to earn as well as her part time work . 

Humanity has no religion , caste or sect. Just one thing binds all of us together and that is the power of togetherness .

Monday, February 11, 2013

sir..

The new year came.. yes 2013 which we all thought will never see.. but we all did, it came with new hopes aspirations ..encouragement to start afresh , most of us welcomed it with a feeling of new opportunities ,  with an ever shining light of hope to accomplish and fulfill whatever was left incomplete in the previous year.

I don't know for many but, for some it didn't start with that much a bang!... the previous year made many decisions already which very well determined and predicted the future which was like pretty obvious , my sister decided finally to leave Mumbai and go back home.. something which she never wanted to do but had to, the situations forced her to... apart form that, the never ending misunderstanding with my sisters friend, who also was our roommate. didn't seem to get fine and it was like a cold was thingy which kept on and on and on..but that's not that big and issue because its pretty ok , things happen they go bad but you cant just help it so many times..

so this was like a very very petty part of the bad start which wasn't even bad actually but then its bad for the ones who go through it. all this while the fights and arguments with my friend were also on simultaneously ..

then on January 10th ... another usual day in my 2013 birthday calender, as always i left home took a jam packed train and was on my way to work, just then my cellphone screen flashed the name of "Srinivas".. one of my college juniors and a very good friend, i was more then happy to his call that morning .. and i answered  to the call with a very enthusiastic "hello?".. he didn't sound very happy or even normal.. i asked him what was the matter? was everything ok?.. i thought it was the final year and he must be tensed about the placements and other shitty stuff that we have to go through during our final year, his reply was" ma'am, kuch theek nahi hai".. to which i mockingly asked" arey kya hua tujhe".. and that's when he asked me.." aapko rahul sir ka pata chala?" i was surprised confused and curious to know what he actually wanted to say?.. with utter curiosity i asked him " what about rahul sir?"

and that's when i got the worst news and the shock of my life..." unki death ho gayi maam"...

i just paused and remained absolutely silent for a moment , confused as to what to say.. i told him had he lost his mind or something?? i spoke to sir the previous day and it was absolutely impossible that such a thing could happen, its was JUST NOT POSSIBLE!!... at that second i felt like i was in a box full of vacuum,
i couldn't express i coudnt understand what i had just heard , my heat was thumping tremendously.. there were so many people around me in the train, all happy laughing, fighting talking chit chatting, nobody could even understand what i had just gone through and what i was feeling at that moment , i tried hard to hold back my tears.. but they were just not in my control, that instant i just wanted to jump off the train i just wanted a phone call or something that could tell me that what i heard was all a fake new a confusion a misunderstanding anything.

i couldn't believe that, rahul sir.. my teacher, my friend, my inspiration , my cheer leader, my business partner, my god father... had left me..had left all of us....for ever..something that neither i nor anyone could ever change, a truth that we will leave with for the rest of our lives.

rahul sir.. it may seem a very ordinary name in fact  a very common one, to everyone who will read this, but this name becomes very special when "nalla" is added to it" Rahul Nalla".. yes thats the complete name .. my senior in college, whom i never knew till i came to second year, i wont say he was a gem of a person, a very different one, always used to help others blah blah... because this is just too less to describe him.

i still remember that day absolutely clearly.. when i gave my first garment construction exam, and as i was deplorable with pattern making and stitching, i screwd up BIG TIME!! gosh!! i had cried copiously that day, with full belief that i will flunk, my world had ended there and then, that;s when, "an angel in black" (ya that's what he should be called as, because his favorite color was black.) held my hand, and guided me through a journey which i would have never been able to even commence properly alone.

"Sirrrrrrrrrr..( scooter style).. please tell me this pattern, how will i pass? how am i going to stitch? i will surely flunk.." this is what i always used to pester him with, 24x7, but the only response i always got was a very silent warm smile" tu kar lega bachcha, pata hai mujhe.. tujhe sab ata hai".. those words which never let me falter, the trust in those sentences gave me so much courage and strength that.. some one like me who couldn't even stitch properly once upon a time, got the compliment in the jury for the best stitching so far they had seen that day.. it was like unbelievable for me.. sir it was you, who helped me all the way through, i can't mention any particular module of mine in which you helped, because there were none in which you didn't , i don't believe you are no more, its not possible :) all the garments i stitched with your help all the knowledge you gave me and the rest of us, can never die can never go away....

Sir, seems like you had come just to help me pass from college.. i just can't imagine what i would have done if you had not come in my life?.. i was absolutely zero when it came to such weird subjects like PM GC, but yes your faith in me and yours trust in me that i can do it and i will.. your words which you always used to say when you were about to pass out " that dont worry i will make you strong enough before i leave, so that you can handle things on your own",, they still linger in my head, i am strong sir i can do things on my own now, but i need you to guide me still.. at every step :(... you wanted to make me strong, but how will i ever be strong without you??? even after i started working, you used to be the only person i called and informed about how i sorted the pattern issue or anything technical, it was like a very big achievement for me sir, :(

when the whole world deserted me, when i went through a very rough phase in college, there was no one, only you were there who stood with me and never let me shatter.. all the times when i used to dine alone at the balaji restaurant, it was you who gave me a call and asked" khana kahaya"? and with a very sulky accent i used to reply " haan sir kha rhi hu".. and thats when you used to appear all of a sudden and order dal khichdi for yourself.. :) even if i left a single morsel in my plate, you used to get so annoyed," dont waste food!! finish it!!.. those words used to scare me and also made me feel guilty for a moment.. and i used to stuff my tummy with every last grain.

That day when you suddenly gave me a call when i was at my home, that you were coming to give me a visit.. i was so over whelmed ... there is actually too much to tell i don't think i will even be able to put it in words.. During Design collection days it was just you who was always worried about our work and wished that we all put up a great show... as you were passing out i had decided that very day that now i will have to come to bangalore delhi or wherever youll go to ask patterns, infact all of us had decided..

you came all the way from delhi just to watch our show :) to see your kids grow and come out with flying colors..
sir, whereever you are i know.. i will again meet you soon, many things will be different but i know i will recognise you .... your principles and your teachings will never ever go forgotten, and i know you are reading this.. you wanted me to write about you one day .. :( miss you heaps sir....

your bhootni ( a name you loved to call me with)..


Wednesday, December 12, 2012

12/12/12

Alright alright ... the whole 12/12/12/ thingy is almost over now without any sort of calamities or any unexpected activities.. as people thought it would end with.. since this date 21st dec has been predicted by the mayan calender .. as the world's end day.. everyone has been just linking up each and every small weird or peculiar thing with the world's end.. gosh i really don't think anything as such is ever going to happen...

My nani, who's birthday happens to be today was so uptight and apprehensive about this whole trio of the number 12 falling on the same date.. but to her surprise  her birthday was celebrated in the bestest way ever..and so she is happy happy.. today happened to be the birthday of "krishh and saanvi " also .. one of my senior designer's twin kids.. who turned 2 today.. adorably cute ...

So the day ended on a normal note... cake.. celebrations etc .. much better then yesterday i must say.... its really beyond understanding that why people don't let you be at peace, when they see you peaceful? 
in my former posts i did mention about a friend who likes someone....and he is just not ready to accept this fact that, that person doesn't want to have a relation or fall in any sort of affair, because she had a break up and after a break up as i have mostly seen,, people either want to be in a relation ASAP or they just do not want to be in a relation at all .. and she believes the latter one i suppose, and i guess its pretty justified, when one of your relations do not work out , you obviously will  hesitate to fall in a second one and go through all of it all over again and end up getting hurt again.. its scary.. but my friend's behavior is certainly not proper, the whole " i-will-die-without-her" thingy.. i just don't feel its ok, if someone doesn't see you the way you see them, doesn't mean you'll just die..huh...

life is so unpredictable , simply anything happens at any damn moment, 2 days back while walking my way back home, on this highly crowded street of lower parel, just as i was trying to avoid myself from getting suffocated due to the pungent odor of the garbage heap, which remains stationed right in the middle of the road on one of the corners.. to my horror i saw a bike who brushed past a man, walking normally on the road and this fellow slipped and fell, and his cellphone flew up in the air and fell right into the big garbage heap..i was in a shock for a few seconds, that man just could have died.. 

so thats how things are these days, our brand is finally launching, the response also seems to be pretty decent, hope things go from good to better and from better to best!!! yayy :D hehehe i am pretty excited as this is the first time i am designing professionally for a brand.. fingers crossed, i wont be naming it so soon, hehehe will write about it soon when i have loads to  brag about :D ...

lastly i forgot..everyday when i check my profile here.. i see a viewer from texas,, its kind of fascinating who is it?? hello who ever it is hi!!! thanks for reading my blogs but i guess you can also follow it so it would get  easier to read i suppose hehe...

Sunday, December 9, 2012

everything at once

lazy sunday as it really is... at home only whiling away time.. sometimes you need such lazy days off from work from the world from everything..  so while i was like dead bored.. scrolling up and down my face book page.. without anything fruitful,, thought why not scribble a bit.. despite of my "shock full laptop" i am managing somehow... crazy it is like me.. the surface of me laptop gives considerably good amount of electric shocks.. which is strong enough to get you out of a reverie ... lol  ..
Someone wise suggested me to listen to this song...: " everything at once" by lenka. OMG its so damn cool...not just the way how its sung, the music and all those things.. its meaning is like so profound... would like to pen down a few stanzas from that song..:
It just made me go back to my childhood, where we had the power to wish and become everything at once....absolutely nothing could stop us from thinking anything and everything at once...sometimes i am bewildered by the way and depth with which a human brain can think and imagine...there is so much beauty in the human brain, anything can be brought to life with just the way we imagine...

Had a long discussion with my best buddy....but don't know why things can't be the same as before...
i am clueless.. absolutely clueless...i think with time i only ill have to step out of this... because my friend has already made his choices.. which is pretty justified.. but ya what will always hurt me is.. that my explanations just wen absolutely unheard....

i really went through" everything at once" in this year 2012... sad.. happy, disappointing, success,, failure.. love, betrayal, venture and break ups...

Saturday, December 8, 2012

slipping away...

Its really not a very happy feeling today... seems like i am loosing my best budddy slowly and steadily .... had no plans or mood of blogging today as nothing great had happened  except for the never ending madness at work about the showing dates.. messy and disorganized.. everywhere its the same therefore nothing new... but regarding my friend.. my heart is really aching on this... i am watching my friendship slowly dying, i dont know what to do or how to mend this, when i can see how my friend on their own want to move towards a path which i dont even want to look at... they claim that i am still the same for them but how is it possible??  i seriously am waiting for the day when i shall be relieved from all such grudges and harsh feelings for anyone... so many times i try to just get rid of all this but fail, really dont know how it will be ok.. just hope some day it is.....

Thursday, December 6, 2012

sad but true... :)

Really, when there is a crack in the glass.. it may remain in a single piece but the crack always remains.. it can never be  mended.. similarly, a heart once broken can not be mended even if its bandaged like several times.. the wound still remains..a relation once tampered with.. always can be made better, quite good in fact, but it can never be the same...what can be done in such a situation? i guess cribbing and feeling bad inside at every moment.. doesn't help much, in fact doesn't help at all... we do feel bad at like many occasions .... things hurt us, we remember good times...still we have to accept facts..

every now and then i am ending up fighting with that friend of mine whom i considered like one of the closest and bestest... we fight ...give explanations.. and according to my friend.. my place is still the same(which i fail to believe anymore).. but i guess its time i let it go ....i think i am giving up today.... some relations are short lived only it seems..no matter how much my friend tries to convince me about my importance.. it seems impossible to believe it.. so in such a situation i think the best thing that can be done is ... to just let it go.... i had never imagined such a day would spring up.. but it did...and its good actually.. because life is all about such situations... at every small step .. we surely would be facing such things in life.

sometimes i just don't understand.. if i was so incompetent then .. why was i there at all??... those few words of my friend.. changed me completely..."u were not there when i needed you".. they still haunt me like anything...somewhere or the other i only am responsible i guess for whetever happened.. but my not being there when my friend needed a best buddy.. was also justified...but.. sadly justifications are always taken as excuses only...
would always wish the bestesttttttt for my friend.. and its entirely their choice with whom they want to be.. :) 

time really changes us...we ourselves don't realize how much we have changed.. how far ahead we have moved.. un till one day when someone we meet on the way..and they tell us to look at out watch and ask" what's the time?" its then that we realize that its too late. to go back.......

my friend will always remain in my heart in my good wishes and in all the prayers i shall pray...but i guess.. my heart got this jerk and with the jerk its doors have closed.. and i have somehow locked myself up... refusing to open up to anyone.. just anyone.. 

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

fruit salad

Everyday.. as i walk down the road on my way to office... thousands of thoughts keep flashing in my head, endlessly... billions of faces come  in front of my eyes..at that very moment i have this craving to pen all my thoughts down but helpless as i am, i can't do that( as i failed to register myself on mobile bloggr) and when i come back home all tired , dead, frustrated and utterly cheesed off..i just don't know what to write? whatever i post is mostly based on this thing called " life".. funny but that's what i noticed that many of my past posts's contain the word " life" even in their titles..But that's what we all revolve around, and that's what revolves around us always , at every minute and every moment..its life and only life all around, be it good , bad, happy or sad.. it is life and its entirely upon us how we take it... smile , crib, cry or be full of happiness.. it will keep moving with the speed of time.. it never seems to stop.

Today, while walking , as i usually keep reading the funny and amusing hoardings hung up high, for the whole word to notice them..saw one of these ironically funny one's.. it read" jyotish salaahey bilkul free !!! 30 din mey asar na honey par 100% money back" lol i mean, what were they thinking?? when you are giving free advises then what will you pay the person back that too 100%, if the mumbo jumbo thing doesn't work in 30 days.. funny.. such things are surely possible only in our country, where people trust "trust" more than "logic" i must say, the "law of attraction" which states that what you believe is what you attract, its all in your thoughts, is of a very high magnitude in our country, where people believe something like so sternly that it does come true.

Past few days have been very weird, don't know what is it that's frustrating and literally agitating me so much? its like so so much anger has been suppressed and now its getting impossible to hold it back any more. Have been fighting with people, fought last night with one of my good friends, the one who seems to be wishing for something which i don't think can never be possible, isin't it irritaing when you are like so sure about something and still people keep on arguing over it? its like why cant they understand such a simple point? we may be wrong but , one certain occasions i think things are like destined to go badly haywire, no matter how much it is tried to be kept in place.

Came back home fought with sis, fought with everyone, then its a state of void when you can't express or explain what you are going through and people just smile it off and its like the worst thing at that moment that anyone can do to you, seems like a dormant volcano inside you has suddenly become active...

well well.. things keep going this way only it seems.. oh i forgot to mention about my buddy Ankit.. he got placed.. wow in his dream company. he was like really crestfallen, due to this whole placement shit.. so i very wisely gave hima piece of my mind... lol after all i could as i was more experienced in this case dude hehehe... and he made it.. so happy for him..
its moms birthday on the 10th and i am like clueless about what to gift her... had thought of making her something by hand, as in some handwork, embroidery  or something but, my disorganized schedule is just not allowing me to  do it :(.. so i  guess i will be gifting her a new cellphone.. yippiee!! hehehe shhh... its a secret.. see ya till next time ... gn